Love at first sight is what I would describe my relationship with Daryl Moore. I finally met a guy who didn't have any kids, ready to love, ready to build a family, and ready to commit. We said our vows 2 years after we met. Together forever is what I had in mind.
My husband Daryl was adopted and he lost his adoptive mother in 2004. He never had a relationship with his biological mother or siblings, although it was something that he greatly desired. After the death of his adoptive mother, he felt incredibly alone and unsupported. Daryl felt rejected and he carried this rejection with him throughout the rest of his life.
Daryl feelings of rejection formed a dark part of him that I felt like I could never touch. He kept it locked away from me. I knew that he was hurt, but I didn’t know the magnitude of his hurt. His depression manifested itself in many different ways. At times he would be distant and would participate in self-destructive behavior. I was heartbroken because my love wasn’t enough to soothe his mind or his heart. My husband committed suicide on July 22, 2012.
When my husband died, leaving me alone with our 3 children, I did not know where to turn. I was strong during the day and I fell apart at night. So many questions ran through my head. I blamed myself for his decision; I wondered how I missed the signs. In hindsight, I saw that there were so many signals pointing to the detrimental state of his mental health.
My name is Tazora Dotie-Moore and I am the founder of the Hear My Cry Foundation a 501(c) 3 nonprofit organization. I am a suicide survivor. I understand the emotional feelings of loneliness, depression, and anxiety. Now, I am dedicating my life to build a foundation to help suicide survivors and people who struggle with mental illness.
If you are battling with the thoughts of ending your life, please know that all is not lost and that there is another way. If you have been touched by suicide in the way that I have, you’re not alone. There are people that know what you’re going through, and that will support you. Together we WILL save lives from suicide.
If you or any one you know are struggling with this deadly illness please contact Suicide Prevention at 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
For more information on Hear "My Cry Foundation" please visit us at www.hearmycryfoundation.org