I gave you my vision. I told you everything I’m going to accomplish. This how you still do me? I love you with every fiber in me. All I ever asked you to do was believe in me. Even if you couldn’t see my vision then you should’ve kept your eyes on me and you would have seen the manifestation. Why couldn’t you see that my love for you was pure? I may not have a lot but whatever I had became yours. I put you first, while in your actions put me last and I still loved you. Well, I’m tired now.
Those were the last words he ever said to me and at the time I didn’t mind. I felt like the luckiest girl in the world. I finally met a man that was able to spoil me in all areas of my life. This man gave me 5 dozen roses a week. He told me I was beautiful as we traveled the seven seas. I had no financial worries and if I thought I wanted it, I was able to get it. Everyone could see that I was glowing and smiling from ear to ear. This man became my husband. He fulfilled every childhood fantasy, so I thought.
As time past I looked up and there he was gracing the cover of a magazine. Turned on the television and there he was being interviewed by one of the most talked about TV shows. I walked into the bookstore only to find several of his books on the shelves labeled as best sellers. I read where the President invited him to the White House while social media could not stop talking about him. This man had become one of the most powerful influential men of our decade. He was the love of my life.
I began to ask myself what happened? How could this be? I’m married to a man that’s not the love of my life?
Then I remembered, while he was begging me to believe in him I gave another man the opportunity to make me smile. See in my moment I couldn’t see him for who he was because I only saw me for what I wanted. However, he gave me everything I ever needed. He couldn’t afford to have 5 dozen roses sent to my home but he single handedly picked out 5 roses from the grocery store and brought them to me every week.
When I was hungry he made sure I ate even if he didn’t eat. He not only told me he loved me but he showed me he loved me by being selfless but I was too selfish to see. My husband was giving me everything I wanted while the love of my life was giving me everything I ever needed.
Now what my husband does for me no longer satisfy me. I always needed the love of my life but my feelings in that moment controlled my decisions. The tough lesson I learned was to not base decisions on how I feel but rather what I know. I knew he was the best man for me but my feelings said you deserve more than what he can give.
All the love of my life wanted was for me to be by his side but I was looking at what was in front of me. Now I don’t want what’s by my side but I want him back who’s in front of me. He was never a bad man to me. Damn, all I had to do was believe, be patient and keep my eyes on him by becoming a part of his vision. But I created a problem that never existed…
Ladies and gentlemen, when you love someone that’s what you do. You love them. Loving another person is taking the focus off of you and placing it on them. If two people would focus on loving their partner 100% then there will never be a lack in the relationship. You will never have time to be selfish because you’re always considering them more than you. In a relationship like this both parties are well satisfied and never have time to look at anything else.
P.S. Never base love on how you feel. Love is a force that is created beyond the feelings. Feelings cannot be trusted. They are never consistent. Any relationship that is built on emotions is doomed before it actually gets started.